Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Where Is She?

Lately I have been thinking a lot about what kind of woman is best for KG! I used to be fascinated with long hair, then short hair like Halle B! Then I moved to the body style. I always wanted that skinny or a little thicker than skinny look on my lady!

Well, Needless to say I married that size 12, I married that hair, I married that perfect look, and it wound up being one of the BEST eye-opening experiences I was ever given by my Creator! Yes it ended in divorce, but the point of it all is that I learned what I was truly looking for! I think it is really plain and simple and to the point. I want a brain: A woman who can think with her head and then her heart. A woman that is an intellectual, but not afraid to say "I Don’t Know the answer to that question, let’s look it up together." A woman that is willing to understand that my name is KG and hers is "______" and that we will never be the same, think the same, or act the same 100% of the time! I want someone that I do not spend all of my time arguing and talking about what I should have did, but someone who wants to discuss real issues or just have an intelligent conversation. My Lady would be sweet, kind, giving, volunteering, but at the same time, knows when to direct and use other energies to get her point across. One, whose main focus is building our empire together, and not letting minute and trivial things tear it down because she KNOWS beyond a shadow of a doubt that we love each other!

She would also understand enough to know that in that love that we have for each other, that I would never intentionally or non-intentionally hurt her feelings. I would never purposely do something in err, and if it happened, then she would rationally think and RESPOND to the situation and not REACT!

Am I asking for too much? Someone to share my dreams and help make them come true as I do for her? Someone to just realize that I do not want to talk right now and I just want to be here with you and existing in that moment! Where is she? Where are you? I have been waiting for 36 years, and you have not reared your head yet. I am not worried about a size! I am not worried about length of hair! I want a natural woman that is comfortable being who she is, and knows that there is no need to defend herself from me, as I am no competition for her I am her help and she is mine. I am her pulse and she is my heart.

If you see her, tell her I am looking for her! My soul has been searching for ages, and I know she is close, but yet so far away! I need to reel her in and hold her, love her, feel her, inhale her!

2 comments:

  1. my fav line "I am her pulse and she is my heart." that's beautiful. u spoke from the heart. a true longing. and i commend you for putting it all out there. less than real men actually do reveal themselves. you were sincere. it's touching. shows sensitivity, honesty. and women need to hear from the man's mouth what he's looking for and what he's learned from past relationships. we women assume what's in a man's mind. a good male friend told me that. we're so busy trying to fit men into our boxes, forgetting that he may have his thoughts about us and that he's actually supposed to SHOW us what's he's all about. LOL so it's nice to see/read my brothas - in their words - describing and revealing their thoughts about what they want, how they feel, and what they think.

    up to us to listen. :)

    jaymeson

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  2. I wish all men could articulate their desires and dreams as well as you do. Maybe if we women would give you all the opportunity without putting you on the defense it would be done more often. Thank you.

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